Awesomeness

I'm a worrier.  I really try not to be, but my obligations and responsibilities run through my head and I wonder how I'll ever meet them all.  It was last night at bedtime, and they marched through the brain again.

Last year when my husband interviewed for his job down here, his boss said that he would be getting a promotion and pay raise by year's end, substantial enough that he wouldn't mind paying for his insurance out-of-pocket, that it'd be so much, he wouldn't miss that deduction.  Well, it's now almost a year-and-a-half later, and we're still without insurance and he's still waiting for the promised raise and promotion.

I groused last night as we were heading to bed, "Well, if **** [name removed] would cough up that promotion and raise he promised you last year, things would be much easier!"

Peter replied, "I'm in better shape now than I was at EPM.  If I were still at EPM, I'd be having to work every Saturday for months to make up for what we lost this week!  At least at this job, I get to spend more time with my family."

And doesn't that just say it all?  Sometimes we have to look at the advantages and blessings as we encounter them.  Later - about 3:30 in the morning, I'd guess, when my older daughter woke up - I was laying in bed, spooning my husband in the cool early morning air, those concerns beginning to creep into my tired brain.  Funny, though, but when I held him just a little tighter, the concerns disappeared, only to have memories of God's provision take their place.  Oh, what I haven't mentioned is, I'd prayed for God to supply our needs.  As I laid in bed, enjoying the awesome pure oxygen buzz I had going from the crisp, cool air coming through the open windows, I remembered things like that carton of milk that didn't go bad until pay day, lasting a full week beyond its expiration date.  And I remembered how, when things were looking a little desperate for my business, that large order would come in.  Bottom line, God provided then and will provide now.

One of the gifts God has given us is each other - our family, our relationship, our girls.  Will God provide for us now?  Yep, just as he's always provided in the past.